Have I shared this before? I don’t know.
Though I’m profoundly deaf, the world is anything but silent to me. It used to be, once upon a time, but those days are long gone.
Anything I see that I know makes a sound, my mind creates that sound for me. Whether it’s accurate or not isn’t important. It’s automatic, and I’ve never been able to prevent my mind from doing this.
Which brings me to the silent hum. This is a sound that isn’t accompanied by anything specific as far as visual experience goes. This is a sound that comes to me when I meditate, or pray, or do yoga. It comes unbidden, and it leaves quietly. Just a small, slow, subtle tapering off.
I used to practice yoga daily before an injury led to chronic pain in my legs. By the time the injury happened, I had done as much as one hour of yoga in a day, and I had practiced every day for 90 days without fail. Some days it was only 15 minutes long.
When the injury happened and the pain got worse, I had various medical treatments including two surgeries. Both failed, essentially, and made the pain worse. So yoga fell by the wayside, and I miss it very much.
Yoga was not really about exercise for me. It was spiritual, as it was intended to be. I genuinely took to heart the concept of yoga as union with the divine. Not that we’re ever separate, but that we need to be reminded in some way, whether this is spiritual or religious or not. Yoga, for me, is reminding myself of my place in the universe. As one cell in the body of the whole.
Although I still deal on a daily basis with chronic pain, I am going to try and slowly add yoga back into my life.
I’ve been reading about how an initial injury can disrupt the body’s nervous system as far as pain goes. When the injury is gone, the body is still all screwed up with the messages. I am hoping for this to be true in my case, and hoping I can retrain my mind and body to communicate better. Yoga could be part of that solution.
So last night I did perhaps 5 minutes of yoga. Not much at all, but just about all I was up for. The silent hum immediately came. Not only did it sink into my mind, but this time it felt as if I were completely enveloped inside of it. It was a strange experience, but very calming. I don’t really know what to make of it.
Is it my subconscious mind playing tricks on me, or something else?
I really haven’t got a clue, but I’ll keep trying to do a little more at a time.
Remember to breathe today.
2 replies on “The silent hum”
Hmm… makes me think, ponder and imagine. Thanks for sharing this intimate experience. Love it.
What you may have stumbled upon naturally is what has been called the Om, the sound current, even the Word in the sense that it is the audible portion of the flow of energy that has created and continues to create our universe, our world.
I wouldn’t ask “what is the purpose”. That question implies that it was created by humans and so humans see it as having a purpose. Purpose is a human concept. I do believe that what you are experience is this om, or audible sound current, as some call it. If you want to understand it then you must follow it, practice it, let it take you where it will. If there is a purpose, the sound itself will lead you to an understanding of that purpose. You are very fortunate to have this gift. Take it seriously.