Decided yesterday I wasn’t going to worry at all about anything on Sundays. Sundays are now my default vent days as far as my food choices go.
This was convenient since we have church and that means potluck after. Did I overdo it? Absolutely. I had a little bit of 5 different desserts. Overall it’s no worse than a bowl of ice cream. After 2 months of absolutely no sugar and flour, it seemed crazy sweet.
Anyway, moving on. My focus this week will be simple: No sugar for the rest of the week, try to make as many healthy choices as possible, and record all calories on My Fitness Pal.
Why no sugar when I just said I wouldn’t stress about it? Because A) I still have a goal to minimize sugar, and I think after yesterday’s indulgence, it just makes sense to me to jump right back into strictness to avoid reverting to the old habits of sugar whenever.
Why record calories? I don’t plan to record calories for the rest of my life. I don’t think people were meant to do this. We got along for thousands of years without even knowing what a calorie is. AND, a calorie isn’t a calorie anyway. Read up on what Dr. Lustig says about it. All that said, it’s a handy way to watch the portion sizes, and since I’m stopping my super duper strict plan, this is a good week to add in a little control.
My worst fear is to gain back everything I’ve lost.
And speaking of that, I suppose I should be willing to show a little accountability here. This means numbers.
9 or so weeks ago I weighed in at my worst weigh-in ever. 302 pounds. This was devastating. And I probably had dropped some, so I might’ve gone to 310.
Today I’m at 279. So I’ve lost 23 at least. I wish I could feel awesome about it, but I emotionally can’t yet, because I’ve been here before. I’ve already lost this before, many times. Anyone who has been morbidly obese understands how easy it is to get here and how hard it is to lose the weight permanently. No one else can really understand.
I’m not giving up. I’ll say that much.
2 replies on “Week 9: Reset”
Awesome! I started with the free app, Lifesum….it keeps track of water and as well as meals and snacks. I’m at my worst of 233 and tired of it! I ran intervals last week and 30 mins of marching while I watched young and hungry 😉
Sounds like you’re getting back on track! Do you ever use My Fitness Pal?