• Lamplight

    The good things about you

    I’m the kind of person that puts too much thought into trying to be a better version of who I am. I was thinking about this last night, while driving to the store, because driving’s an excellent time for pondering life’s mysteries, including the mystery of why people so hard on themselves. Why am I? What I realize is that, while self-improvement is not a bad thing, it’s the wrong focus. The focus is on what we are not. The focus is on what we are not doing. The focus is on something we have yet to reach. I practice this more than I practice appreciating who I already am,…

  • Creative Juice,  Lamplight

    Self-doubt banshees and paralyzed monkeys

    I have lost track of the number of times I have opened up the computer to write and let myself be paralyzed by the blank screen, or opened up my sketchbook and let myself be paralyzed by the blank page. When I started this website, it was going to be whatever I wanted it to be, without worrying about what anyone thought of it. I had other websites in the past and I felt confined by what I had intended for those websites to be, and sometimes this was due to my choosing a specific domain name that seemed to lock me into one category. Munkymind.com was intended to be…

  • Lamplight

    Make what you do matter to you

    I think a lot about how to use the minutes and hours of my life in meaningful ways, at least meaningful to me. Like anyone else, I both use my time well and I waste time. I work toward shifting my choices toward using the time well, though it seems that’s not always within our ability to control. Regardless of what we might believe about what comes after we live our lives on this planet, we only know for a fact that we have our current lives. We have a finite number of years on this planet. Hopefully it’s a span of time that feels long enough to us. We…

  • Creative Juice,  Deaf-Centered Topics,  Lamplight

    Preaching to the choir in the echo chamber

    Yeah, I know, that’s kind of a weird title for someone who is deaf, since I can neither hear a choir nor an echo chamber. But I’ll use these words because it’s the best I have available to me. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I have been doing with Munky Mind for the past few months. I’ve enjoyed being able to reach a larger audience, and I’ve really appreciated all of the positive encouragement from people, namely those either in the Deaf Community or connected to it. Obviously, a large number of my posts have been Deaf-Centered. Most of them, really. I wrote these posts because I’ve had…

  • gross out factor,  Lamplight

    I am looking for peace in washing dishes

    Some time ago, I noticed that when I do the dishes, I am automatically tense. I breathe more shallowly, and my shoulders and neck are taut with tension. I realized that this has been the case for a long time, perhaps since I was young, but I never really examined this very closely. I just knew I didn’t like to do the dishes. I don’t feel the same way about other cleaning tasks, so I wasn’t sure at first why I felt this particular tension over the dishes. It didn’t matter if it was just a few dishes in a day, I automatically felt the same tension. If I am…